WHO AM I? by Suzie Daggett
The Who Am I question is either a guiding light for transformation or one completely off someone’s radar. For me, I love getting to know my inner/outer self as I continue to investigate: Why am I different? What causes me to do what I do? What elements of my ego or soul lead my way? How can I be a better person? What do I want/need out of life?
Since I was a young girl and had an unknown voice give me some life guidelines, I have been attracted to knowing this other part of life – my soul essence. In high school I read the few popular metaphysical books around at the time and began to move away from organized religion. I investigated my soul purpose, my soul’s personality, my soul’s needs and my intuition.
By my 40’s, I was a practiced seeker delving into the countless elements of my mind/body/spirit container. I read spiritual books and articles, felt into information at a conference or talks for what was right for me and carried on deep conversations with like-minded friends.
Despite all my study, I am continually amazed at the persona who pops up as me just when I feel I have broken a controlling ego personality habit. I am now ‘of an age’ to be grateful for my wise soul feedback, grateful for my ongoing inquiry and grateful for the changes I have made to be more settled in my soulful being. I feel I am living a life emanating from my deeper soul while watching to see where old patterns of human ego reaction overtake my thoughts. And, they do, especially when I feel I am getting a grip on balancing my soul and ego!
Here is an interesting exercise you may choose to follow:
Write a summary of who you are. Use descriptive qualities you feel you carry within your soul space rather than what you do in the outer world (no job descriptions!). It can be an eye-opener and game changer if you are ready to change into a fuller soulful being. Here is my short version of Who Am I. Enjoy the process as this is a wonderful mirror to discover more of Who You Are.
I am aware
(this is a process of consciousness)
I a soulful
(when I pay attention)
I am intuitive
(Intuition guides my life)
I am human
(only for a short while – this body will pass)
I am bossy
(when I forget I am a soul)
I am my ego
(more often than I like, it is still my default)
I am very content
(with my family and friends)
I am connected
(especially being in nature)
I am sad
(knowing people are suffering)
I am satisfied
(when I write a good sentence)
I am surprised
(when a stranger expresses a kind compliment)
I am patient
(ha! still working on that one)
I am positive
(my motto - all is well no matter what)
I am controlling
(I am consciously recognizing and changing this)
I am open
(I am always interesting in learning and creating)
I am grateful
(for all I experience – good or odd)
I am love
(when my open heart spills over)
I am my soul
Who are YOU?
Originally published by The Master Shift
WHAT HAPPENED TO MY DREAM? by Suzie Daggett
My dream began with wonder on 11-11-11 at 11:11 am (no kidding!) and ended 13 months later in frustration, tears and sadness.
On that fateful day, my inner guidance directed me to a quiet spot of beauty overlooking a large pond with geese, ducks, and warm sun. I sat with no specific intention, just silently drinking in the space when I heard two words in my left ear – Seekers Central. Wow! What a cool name. I raced home and checked the domain name, which was available, so I grabbed it not know yet what I would do with this gem. The next month, I sold a business to concentrate on another. However, due to changes in the economic climate, I ended up deconstructing the second business. Since I had time, I began to focus on what this new business was or could be.
I created a vision for Seekers Central: a compendium web interface between spiritual seekers and teachers to address the Who Am I question. I spent 13 months of planning, thinking, writing, dreaming, scheming, talking, visualizing, wanting, wanting and more wanting Seekers Central to come to fruition. I looked for co-creation partners, as the idea was broad with depth and character.
With starry eyes and ego blazing, I kept at it, hoping the Universe would be kind (since they offered the words to me in the first place) so I could find the right keys to open the door to entrepreneurial manna.
Finally I was forced to face reality, that dreadful defining kick in the heart, ego and spirit. The venture was just too costly for me to pull off on my own. I needed deep pockets which I did not have, I needed youth, which I did not have, I needed talent which I had some of, but not enough.
So, the dream ended as all do with sad hot tears and a decent too long pity party as I let go of my ego’s desire to be seen, let go of my soul’s desire to be of service, let go of my baby boomer mentality that I can do it all, let go of my pride of creation and finally let go of wondering why the Universe did not support me (imagine a 3 year old stomping her feet and demanding attention yet not getting it – that was me). Was this a deliberate and soulful way for me to learn humility, patience and resolve? Oh my.
What happened on the way to my dream? Did I fail? Did society at large fail me? Was it just not the right time, right place, right idea? Since I am at the leading edge of the boomers, I began to feel that maybe, just maybe my 65 + years on this green/blue gem had a bit part in my dream’s demise. My very young spirit lies within a halo of white hair. I feel I have much to offer the youngers via my talent and wisdom – that sounds geezer like, but it is true. I really do not know the whys of the demise of my dream, but I do know I will create another challenge for myself to satisfy my soul’s longing to be of service, my pocketbook for a few dollars, and let my wounded ego out of the “bad girl” mind jail it found oddly comforting.
After my ‘dream’ died, I took time to recognize several soul lessons. First, it was time for me to use my voice and power, not the voice of others, as I had for many years. Second, I was finally ready (I am a slow learner and late bloomer) to speak to the importance of the soul and how it connects us, empowers us and leads us on this wondrous life adventure to live an expansive life. Today, that is what I am doing.
My dream did not die, it gave birth to me.
Originally published by The Master Shift